I woke up a 5;30 this morning with a growly tummy. I’m not sure if I’m more surprised that I woke up that early or that I’m actually hungry for breakfast. Either way it’s time for clean pancakes to get in my belly.

my dad and stepmom are coming tomorrow to visit in honor of graduation. I still can’t decide if I’m excited or not.

nobody understands me 

• me: (getting pumped for my workout) so this workout I'm about to do? It makes me wish I'd never been born
• roommate: so then why do you even do it?
• me: 
• roommate: 
• me: 
• roommate: 
• me: ...what?
• roommate: why do you even bother if you hate it so much?
• me: I'm sorry... I don't think I understand your question
• roommate: 

got the poem typed. it reads like shit, but what ever. I don’t have enough energy to give a fuck. too many other things to think about tonight.

I have to turn a poem I’ve written this year in for my AP Lit exam. I really don’t feel comfortable doing this. All of the ones I’ve written have been extremely personal; the least personal one I have is called anxiety and even that’s about my anxiety disorder. I’ve been sitting here for at least 20 mins trying to will myself to just type the damn thing. My teacher is going to think that I’m such a freak.

Workout 

Fit in 90 Day 2

Honestly it wasn’t hard at all. I mean I definitely got a workout I just didn’t feel like it was as tough as I usually like it. I think my ‘light’ weight was too light, but my other ones are in my car…which is in the shop getting the windows tinted. Even the cardio was easy-peasy. My heart rate did elevate, but I never got to the point where I was gasping for air. Now this could be because I switched my asthma meds on friday and now breathe like a normal person, but since I’ve never had that easy of a time during cardio I’m not sure. The cardio was fun though. I love mma and fighting so it was right up my alley; even though the people on screen had kind of shoddy form. I actually almost went for a second round and the I remembered the new Pop Pilates Bikini Blaster 2 has been out for like a week and I haven’t done it. I always love Cassey, so I had a good time with it; though I’ve come to realize that band has given me permanent caves of steel. Overall I feel like I had a decent workout. 

outwide:

Solo straight up beasting

I feel none of us would have ‘off’ days if we all ate, trained, and lived together. Fitblr mansion? 

Eating today 

Hasn’t been the best at all. I had some cookies and then I had krystals for lunch, I’m a sucker for that steamed bun. At least I’m getting back on track with my workouts. As soon as the dyers done I’m going to work out.

She’s the Man is definitely my favorite go to movie. No matter what type of mood I’m in I die laughing.

I know you guys don’t think I’m funny, but that’s because you can’t see my face.